Thursday, March 15, 2007

So sorry I have missed about a week and a half. It was a pretty big battle over that time in a physical and mental sense so I didn't do much writing. Just the thought of writing some of it down had me running to drive the porcelain bus again! Needless to say I did a great deal of throwing up last week - my least favorite thing to do in the world as well as something I really thought I was going to avoid all together through this so it was mentally taxing to be doing it multiple times a day.

You wouldn't believe the multitude of drugs and different types of drugs that I have been on and off over the last couple of months. Mind boggling! I think we are finally getting things dialed back into the wright combinations, amounts, and time frames to get through the process that we need to. Needless to say with all the drugs, I don't drive anymore so Andrea is my taxis driver. We spend a good deal of each day at one docs office or another. We have found out that if I can keep better hydrated I do better with the gag reflex. So a couple of bags a day 7 days a week!

The external burns aren't to bad yet, more of a light sun burn. Internally I have a lot of sores and have a lot of difficultly getting anything down the throat other than liquids. We use the feeding tube for everything else. This has been a curse and a blessing...the canned crap they give you that is supposedly the best thing and wonderful, coagulates in my stomach and when I puke it up it looks like the inside of a Nerf football!!! Last night we shoved some good old German noodles, potatoes, and hamburger gravy down there and I had a good nights sleep!

Have you really ever realized how may food commercials are on TV??? Even stuff that I wouldn't care about normally is really looking good. How about an extra long Conney chili cheese dog with tator tots? I don't know about you but that sounds like heaven right now while I drink my carnation instant breakfast!!!!

Many many many thanks to all of you have signed my guest book! I do look at it everyday and just to hear from you all brightens my days. I can't wait to get back to the real life and be done with this crap. Yesterday was radiation treatment number 21 so each day gets a little closer. Thank you again for all your support thoughts and prayers.

Steve